I’ll be honest – I had a moment to write just after I got back from Okinawa on the 19th, but I just couldn’t find it in myself to write anything at all. Like my mind had gone completely blank. I’ve had the most amazing 2 month break though, and I just wish I had an infinite amount of resources and time so that I could keep on travelling like this. But I guess I’m here to study, and study I will.
(About Okinawa – there’s not much to say other than that I could hardly believe such a place existed on our planet. I’d write a whole post about it but it would just be the word ‘gorgeous’ typed out around 500 times – I definitely want to go back at some point in the future though.)
Thing is, I’ve come upon an episode of my life in Japan that is, unfortunately, filled with demotivation. I’ve written about this frustration before on this blog albeit in small increments – feeling like I’ve finished all that I want to do in Tokyo, for example. I can only find things to be excited about when I’m already in a motivational mood – and if I’m not, I’m bang out of luck and rely solely on other people filled with empathy to get me up and about. So, It’s incredibly dangerous if I reach 0 energy without anything already on the horizon.
I think another big problem of mine is that I overthink things way more than I need to when I reach paused moments of my life. If I have nothing to look forward to, I’m filled with feelings of anxiety or I think about the past where I’ve messed up, which is the worst thing to do when you’re me. That’s just the way it is, unfortunately, but I’m blessed that I’ve been able to grow to understand myself more and the ways that my brain can suddenly go self-destruct mode.
I know these feelings will fade when class starts again tomorrow and I’ll be filled with new material to process – it’s just this wait at the moment where I need to find a way to distract my brain from being my brain.
With that being said, I’ve been looking at part-time jobs I could do for the remaining 4 months that I’m here in Tokyo, and I’m also looking forward to the 3 day weekend I’ll be having (as opposed to the 1 day weekend of last semester). Class is going to be a little tougher, but that’s what I need as a person – something tough to keep me motivated. Travelling again will be tough, given the only time I’ll really have will be the weekend (plus finding places that I’d want to travel to now that I’ve been to every destination I was hoping to go), but knowing I only have around 16 weeks left in this country should hopefully be enough motivation in the coming days and weeks.
So, without further ado, here are the places I travelled to during the two month break (call back to the travel plans) and the amount of time I spent in each location:
Sapporo – 3 days
Seoul – 7 days
Kyoto – 8 days
Nara – 2 days
Osaka – 1 day
Himeji – 1 day
Hiroshima – 2 days
Nikko – 2 days
Nagano – 1 day
Adding all of that up, I spent more than a month being on my feet in a whole bunch of different locations, and I only settled back in Tokyo for around 9 days to complete an essay I had to write for UEA. I’m incredibly proud of myself and I’m grateful for the experiences I’ve had – I just wish I had the motivation to do more, but I’m almost certain it’ll come to me very soon.
I should get back to a weekly schedule of posting after this, though possibly not on a Thursday now that my timetable has completely changed – so until next time!